“As you do not know the way the spirit comes to the bones in the womb of a woman with child, so you do not know the work of God who makes everything.” Ecclesiastes 11:5
|Positive Test: 9-16-11|
This verse is the perfect link between our last post and this one. If you haven’t read it, feel free to look back now. Long story short, I had a miscarriage 4 months ago, a thing that is not easily understood when looking at the will of God. But He is perfect and knows exactly what He is doing...sovereign. This is why we worship Him, after all. On September 16, we discovered that I was pregnant again! Our God is GOOD. “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” James 1:17
|The fortune cookie we opened at lunch after the appointment!|
We have dreamt of this our entire lives. Together, we have dreamt since we were just dating. And now, it is really happening. The first time I was pregnant, it ended very early. We never were able to see a glimpse of the baby on ultrasound or hear its heartbeat. This time it has been different. We were able to see the baby and hear the heartbeat on 10.6.11! We didn’t tell people right away this time. It was our precious secret...that God had chosen to bless us with a miracle of a new life...even though we DO NOT deserve it. Our pastor, Jason, preached about it from Ephesians 2:1-10 this past Sunday (check it out here). The part that blows me away is that even though we are born into sin and would choose sin over God, “...God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.” This gift of a child is a tiny glimpse into the immeasurable riches to come as we continue following Christ. It has taken our breath away. We are so thankful.
It’s almost like this pregnancy has been even more drenched in prayer because of our previous loss. We like to believe that we would have been just as thankful and humbled by our first baby’s development, but we can’t be sure. This time around every day moving forward is a blessing. Every tiny twinge of pain and wave of nausea brings joy. It is a reassurance of growth. We are following our baby’s development on an app on our phones so that we can pray for his or her growth very specifically. We would love if you would join us in praying Psalm 139:13-17 over our baby: “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!”
We know that it makes us vulnerable by sharing the news so early—today I am 7 weeks. However, we are choosing to share so that more can pray and because we are at peace knowing that God has total control. This is HIS baby. We are just excited to be the ones who He is allowing to love this little cashew looking embryo and teach him or her about His love for them so that one day they will join us in living for the soul purpose of furthering His kingdom. Baby Wells is due May 27, 2012.